August 2010
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July 2010
39 posts
going to sleep with you is one of the best...
dear cute adorable thing in michigan;
i just fucking love you. and tomorrow when i’m more awake and not all GRENKER:VME:RKNVKERNHERH on painkillers i’m writing you a blog/story <3 you’re so adorable. thank you for all that, i honestly teared up just thinking about all these things we do together only we can understand <3
sorryy
i’ve probably pushed the lovey-gooey limit today.
i’ll wait <3
you're my only reason to live. without you there's...
you bring out all my happiness (:
my biggest secret?
you’re the best fucking thing to happen to me, alyx. oh wait, that’s not a secret, at all (:
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iloveyoubrandy:
iloveyoubrandy:
… I would never pose in less than what you were okay with even if I did start modeling. I can take one and send you it baby…if it helps at all. I will never ever ever leave you. If I did, I’d kill myself after. I promise you you’re all I want.
i’d love for you to be happy…
I know baby ! That’s why I never will, I completely understand, I feel the same...
oh!
iloveyoubrandy:
iloveyoualyx:
oh okay (: i thought you meant it was for someone else, i was jealous cuz they’re lucky. i never did manage to get a picture of you in a tank or shorts… or in your PJs. i wish i had one of you in your PJs, then i could look at it everynight and dream (: i love you gorgeous. and…hey… you know if you decide to ever leave me… and find someone else and you start...
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oh okay (: i thought you meant it was for someone else, i was jealous cuz they’re lucky. i never did manage to get a picture of you in a tank or shorts… or in your PJs. i wish i had one of you in your PJs, then i could look at it everynight and dream (:
i love you gorgeous.
and…hey… you know if you decide to ever leave me… and find someone else and you start...
iloveyoubrandy:
iloveyoualyx:
im sorry im too possessive to let you model baby… but… i promise someday when this all works out i’ll take you to all the fashion shows in new york.. i’ll have money so we can buy you the clothes and shoes and everything you want… you can put on little shows in our house! we can travel anywhere you want baby… italy, paris, spain, poland, swizz cheese land,...
im sorry im too possessive to let you model baby… but… i promise someday when this all works out i’ll take you to all the fashion shows in new york.. i’ll have money so we can buy you the clothes and shoes and everything you want… you can put on little shows in our house! we can travel anywhere you want baby… italy, paris, spain, poland, swizz cheese land,...
Too short, too fat, too much boob
iloveyoubrandy:
iloveyoualyx:
iloveyoubrandy:
Pree much
i think you’re fucking perfect, and i think you look 700 times better than those desperate chicks on those runways. i love you <333 just know i’m forever proud of you.
Haha..not gonna lie, I’m pretty jealous of most of them.
why? you’re about 500 times more gorgeous than them. please dont ever change into one of them, i...
Too short, too fat, too much boob
iloveyoubrandy:
Pree much
i think you’re fucking perfect, and i think you look 700 times better than those desperate chicks on those runways. i love you <333 just know i’m forever proud of you.
your height weight and tits are the reason you...
well, they’re fucking stupid because you’d be a fucking sexy midget big boobed model. but you’re mine. let’s fuck ;D
bring that pinstripe shirt.
dear alyx;
i love you. so much. i’m sorry the past few days you’ve put up with my extreme shitty abusive self because i’m miserable. it’s not fair to you, i’m sorry.
when this is all over i promise i’ll make it up to you and i’ll be better at helping you and better at complimenting and taking care of you.
i like hearing your problems, because… even the small...
Secretly I've always wanted to be a model or a...
alyxjohnson:
It’s not quite as secret now though :]
well, while i scream “nuu my alyx” in my head, you should definatly model around me!
iloveyoubrandy:
I’m sorry. I told you…I told you once I started telling you things you’d start hating me.
Don’t baby sit me. I don’t want to be baby sat. I’m so sorry. I’m a complete shit bag, I can’t even stand myself. I’m sorry I don’t take good care of you. I promise I’ll start being better to you and I’ll shut up and just focus on you. I won’t have any more problems, I swear.
I’m so sorry....
so...
besides the fact i’m the worst girlfriend ever. my best friend got used. horray. i can’t catch a break. i’m barely able to walk and i’m still babysitting everyone. i can’t even talk… sometimes i really want a break from being everyone’s hero. sometimes i want to break down and cry without someone trying to find a reason worse than mine so i have to take...
alyx;
i know this is going to sound odd… but i really don’t think it is. i’m really sorry i’m getting surgery tomorrow. because now i can’t call you tonight and i know you’re upset. and i’m upset too, and i’m sorry i won’t be able to call you for a few days… well.. i mean i can… i just can’t talk. i know it’d weird because...
ily.
tiuy.
sometimes i wish i'd drop dead.
because then i’d be dead and i couldn’t say bad things to you in your imagination. i wish i could make you happy outside your imagination.
i'm just your embarrassment and the reason you...
i know i'll never be good enough to make you stop,...
every day i wake up and write "alyx thinks you're...
you are the perfect one.
6 billion.
My last boyfriend broke up with me because it was too much for him to bear that I was raped and molested by two different guys. He was the first person I told the whole story too. I think from now on I’m going to lie and say it never happened. I hate being reminded I’m nothing but damaged goods. i know the feeling.
It's the most annoying thing to see couples that...
(via iloveyoubrandy)
I FUCKING HATE THAT. Or ones who try to hug the other and the other pushes them away because they don’t wanna be clingy in public or something? I hate all other couples. Fuck them all. Selfish assholes. If only they knew how it feels to be distanced for 6 fucking years. Then again, I’m grateful, I think it made us stronger than every other couple in the world...
i fucking miss you.
no happy.
i suck at making you smile.
i haven't washed the pillow cases because i can...
you're the gee to my mikey
:/
i haven’t changed out of your hoodie, black flag shirt/horde tee and spongebob pjs since you left.
making light of hard times...
the madina lake incident. mathew was beaten and nathan, being his twin (slightly older) brother, is hardcore suffering. earlier today someone posted on his tumblr “you guys are like gee and mikey.” all i could think was. “no.. if mikey got beaten up and forced to has part of his skull removed for surgery gerard would have tracked down the guy who beat him and slowly and painfully...
you gave up your biggest obsession to get better...
June 2010
18 posts
iloveyoubrandy asked: Stop. You are fuckin perfect for me, every little last detail. I wanted to quit.
you stay even though i've ruined your...
iloveyoubrandy asked: I mean it :/ I couldn't have found anyone better.
iloveyoubrandy asked: Yes. Don't make me give another long cheesy blog like I did the other night.
siriusblackisabamf asked: that's not true, at all. from what i see, you're an amazing girlfriend to alyx. and i'm pretty damn sure she'd agree with me.
iloveyoubrandy asked: You're an outstanding girlfriend, there's no way to describe.
i wonder how many times ive been the reason for...
:/
im going to go get help. so i stop making you sad...